Why Can't I Have an Affair? I Repulse Her.

I stay for the kids, stay for now, because I know it will be hell when I do. I know she will do her best to raze me to the ground. I am sure she dislikes me more than she lets on, I think she tolerates my breathing at best. I know she will punish me the minute I hint I am ready to leave, so I stay because I know she will turn the kids against me.

Parental alienation isn't just that thing where you tell the court she is unhinged and want access, it's also a manipulative move where your kids are turned against you. You become the enemy. "Us against him, your dad.'

I miss touch. I miss kissing. Holding hands. Smiling across a table. I have needs, and I am aching to stray. Is it straying when she won't let you near her for three years or more? Is she having an affair? I am craving intimacy.

After writing about divorce and listening to way more stories than I post, I can assure you that you don't. You don't because when your partner finds out, and it appears very few don't find out, your children will pay for your sins. Someone on Reddit recently posted about being a child of divorce and 20 years on his step mother reminisces about things that happened that are obviously during the time of the affair. It's not only hurtful but damaging to the child's relationships which are impacted by trust and abandonment issues. x

Adultery, Infidelity, whatever you label it, has a knock on damaging consequence.

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